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We
present an excerpt from the book:
The
year 1883 started without promise. There was no denying
that Calcutta did not agree with them. It had started
raining, and was hot too. Anandi was restless. She
felt very weak and sometimes breathless. Often, she
had a slight temperature and constant headaches. Heat
made her skin come out in blisters. Her American aunty
sent some medicines but nothing worked. Anandi continued
to read. She knew nobody in town, which was a help
in a way. The Joshis used to go for walks, which caused
other troubles. In Calcutta, people were not used
to seeing a lady walking on the street. The purdah
system was very strong and Anandi was the only woman
who tried to flout it. People stared at her, and rich
people in their carriages instructed their drivers
to slow down as they approached Anandi. Once, when
they were walking down the Esplanade, she was the
only woman on the road. People jeered and a policeman
stopped them and asked Gopalrao who the woman with
him was. Gopalrao's anger knew no bounds when the
policeman refused to believe that Anandi was his wife.
She could be nothing but a slut. Gopalrao pounced
on the policeman and held him by his throat and said
he would lodge a complaint at his police station.
Realising that Gopalrao was speaking the truth, the
policeman freed himself from his grip and whispered
that nobody walked with his wife in this part of Calcutta.
Like two wounded animals, they came home. They did
not eat but lay on the bed speechless. For a long
time, they could not sleep. Gopalrao said in a low
voice he was filled with disgust at his country. He
wished to go far away. If they could not go to America,
they could go to Rangoon or may be Aden. He would
rather give up his job and work as labourer in another
country.
His depression became contagious. They spent the whole
night talking. In a couple of days, he got transferred
to Serampore, which was near Calcutta; they could
not settle there either. It was a very small town
and though they faced no problems, Anandi's education
did not progress. They were both unhappy. Once day,
when Anandi was reading a book in English, Gopalrao
declared there was no point in reading English any
more. Just as Lokhitwadi's Shat Patre had convinced
him that Sanskrit was no longer of any use, he now
felt the same about English. Anandi listened, shocked,
while Gopalrao continued, "Whatever is useful
is knowledge. That's what I think. It's no use reading
books aimlessly. It's hypocrisy. It makes you pretentious.
It is better to be ignorant than to have knowledge
that is useless."
Anandi asked what they should do then. Gopalrao replied,
"Try and go to America somewhow. I want you to
be a doctor. No Indian lady has as yet gone to America,
not for education surely."
Gopalrao looked into Anandi's eyes. His eyes glowed
with a new thought. He could not bear the speed of
his own thoughts. He got up and stood near the window.
Outside, the blue sky streaked clear right up to the
horizon. He stared at the expanse. Then he turned
back quickly with a few steps and came near her. He
put both his hands on her shoulders. "Instead
of both of us rotting here, what if you go to America?"
"Alone!" she looked up at her husband. The
light of a thousand suns shone in his eyes. His image
grew so large that it seemed to fill the entire world
around them. Her eyes were dazzled. She could not
bear it. She was lost, not knowing where she was and
what she was doing. What a terrible thought! Frighteningly
enormous but irridescent and bright! She was scared
but attracted towards it at the same time. Like a
shining yellow cobra with his hood spread out, the
thought demanded her whole attention. She closed her
eyes. Tears streamed down her cheeks. Gopalrao insisted
that she go ahead first and then he would follow her.
That way, no time would be wasted. He started pacing
up and down in the room. He had solved the problem.
But was it the right way? Brahmin women did not go
out in the streets in front of their own houses alone.
They needed someone to chaperone them from Bombay
to Kalyan and this girl barely 17, did he dare to
send her all alone that far off? What kind of people
would she meet? What situations would she have to
face?
When he looked at Anandi, he found that she was reading
again. He added, "You should go alone, set an
example before the people. People say women are weak.
You will prove them wrong. When you go to a foreign
country, you need not give up all your ways of life."
There was silence in the room. Gopalrao seemed exhausted.
Sitting down, he asked her if she would be able to
go alone. With her gaze on the floor, she said, "Yes,
I will go."
Gopalrao was filled with admiration. He delclared,
"There are few women like you. You have put me
to shame. I thought of it a few days ago but I dared
not disclose it to you. I don't know what gives you
this courage."
Anandi looked at her husband. She smiled. "I
know that this is an adventure. The whole world is
full of sorrow and ill-meaning people. I know that,
but I am a real Hindu. I believe in destiny. If we
run away from risks, danger catches up with us. Mrs
Carpenter is there. Aunty Carpenter, I will be all
right."
"I won't be there."
"The religious pandits have already told us.
Whatever will be, will be. You know that. If it is
our destiny to be separated, then we will suffer that
even here. Death snatches a person from right in front
of you."
She was cool and collected. Gopalrao thought that
she was quite a different person from what he knew
her to be. He felt she was much greater than him.
Only yesterday, he had sown the seed that became the
plant. He was worried the little plant would have
to brave the storm, the heat, the rain. How could
it survive? And now, before his very eyes, the plant
had grown up into a strong creeper, so tall, it almost
reached the sky.
Anandi continued, "This life is like a flower.
We bloom and we fade. Everyone is alone. Why depend
on someone else? You can come when you have enough
money. We don't waste time now. We will raise money
by selling whatever we have and can. And I will go.'
Next day, she wrote all that had happened to Mrs Carpenter.
She explained why she would be going alone. They were
busy for the next few days organizing the finances
and finding out more about America. It was decided
that she should go directly to New York from Calcutta.
Dr Thorborn and his wife, who was also a doctor, informed
the Joshis that the Pennysylvania in Philadelphia
was a medical college for women. There were two more
English lady acquaintances of Dr Thorborn who were
going to America. They would be good travelling companions.
Finally, the day was fixed. The ship was leaving Calcutta
on the seventeenth of April. Anandi was to board that
ship.
(Taken from Chapter 15, page 140 to 144)
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